hi,
i know, long time no blog.

sorry, been through a hell lot of shit recently.

this is just a dedicated entry to cairo anyway.

she came back from that friend's friend's place on monday. and now being wed morning, we're gonna put her down in a couple more hours. her leg's are really bad, to the extend that it curves inwards when she actually manages to stand, that itself being such a task already.
i saw her earlier tdy trying to stand and walk towards me as i was having my lunch in the kitchen, but she couldn't. she ended up at my toes somehow, and she just licked it as she normally did.
that brought tears to my eyes. literally. i cried.
i went to school and stayed out till late, so that i could somehow block myself out emotionally from my beloved dog. somehow this attempts nvr ever work. she's gonna be put down very soon. this time, its really gonna happen. i'm gonna spend a couple more minutes with her, and i have to go to bed.

i loved/love that bitch.

i really do.

she's just extraordinarily beautiful.
i'd rather her be snapping and biting me rather than for her to be so nice to me still.
she's the epitome of forgive and forget.
cairo wouldn't be forgotten for all the furballs she left at home, for all the pee and shit scents she still has left in the kitchen. for however much money she drained us of.

she's still to be loved.

hello,

i feel great. my parents are down in melbourne too. together with the brother of course, everyone is in melbourne now. melbourne is like my second home. i mean, it can be counted as the second home. since a home is where u live, have family, have fun, friends. its already considered one right?

so, the dicussion abt where my future lies would probably begin tonight. shall see as to where i study next yr, whether i continue in TP or study here with my sisters. but as i was thinking since i'd very likely go overseas to pursue a degree, i might as well go overseas now, to like help myself with the differences and the need to budget and everything else. especially for the fact that my sisters are already here, so when i run low on cash, run into problems, i can turn to my sisters for immediate help. you don't think that's a perfectly acceptable answer? well, i think so.

enough abt that. i decided to go get like a last hour at platform one before the authoritarians come. jevon and i went on to platform. and so, when i was abt to leave, this chick, karen who works with KN and just turned 18 chatted with me for a bit. the convo went like this.

K: you're not leaving are you?
B: yes i am.
K: you're going to lavish aren't you?
B: no i'm not, i'm going home, the folks are coming down.
K: don't lie, you're going to lavish aren't you?
B: no, i really am not going. i'm heading home.
K: alright, in that case, give me your number, i'll call you(with this particular tone)
B: sorry, can't do, i'm leaving soon.
K: where? KL?
B: no, singapore, i'm singaporean.
K: okay. when will i see you again?
B: maybe the next time i come back to melbourne.
K: the next time you come back, its gonna be my chinese birthday.
B: cool enough.
then she pushes cheek out for me to kiss. so i did so.

haha, i mean its quite a story. you don't think?

well, its been fun, gonna be back in singapore very soon.

well, taggers, kindly put your names down, it'll be very much appreciated compared to nicks that's nvr been seen.